January 2012
9 posts
new year
here we go…. magic of intention: 2012. I did this exercise last year on this very evening before entering a sweat lodge, where my projections were writ upon parchment and burned… and the results were powerful, measurable, life-changing. Tonight I am going to meditate for three hours until the clock turns past 12, cementing these words of magic into vibrational reality. Summon...
December 2011
8 posts
overindulging....
its something I aim to work on/with, cuz sometimes I feel like I just take in a liiiiiiiitttttle bit too much (and why?!) = not so happy warrioress atall.
its a fine line, yars? yars it is.
ps, I love Los Angeles and am so, so happy I can call it home <3
slowing down....
Osho Zen card drawn last night:
SLOWING DOWN – Knight of Rainbows - “The Knight of Rainbows is a reminder that, just like this tortoise, we carry our home with us wherever we go. There is no need to hurry, no need to seek shelter elsewhere. Even as we move into the depths of the emotional waters, we can remain self-contained and free from attachments. It is a time when you are ready to let go...
nice dream
I had a most lovely dream after the amrit vela this morning….
in the lot that has been razed above my parents virginia home (where there used to be a most magical garden, an artists’ home, ponds, composting, antique farm equipment, just general awesomeness that is now a flat tract of dirt and sawdust), a brand-new giant labyrinth-like gurdwara and pool appeared. it was filled with...
too much?
there’s a fine fine line…. between dharma and trappings, between excellence and exclusivity, between greatness and scandal……
out of my routine, thrown in the fire, all I can do is put in the work and try to retain my center. when the freakout binge returns i gotta roll with the wave but not ride it.
and congratulate myself for how far i’ve come. it hurts,...
uphill
a challenge, for sure… introducing, explaining, maintaining compassion and understanding for those I have known my whole life… about my beliefs and choices.
I love my friends and family, have endless gratitude! — am eternally thankful for their support, love, and awesomeness. Seriously. And I have never had any intention to hurt or disrespect anybody. But I am being met with...
linear
This way is not. it is a beautiful pink and bronze sparkled swirl, of 4 dimensions spiraling diagonal through the cosmos, up my spinal column, into the root center.
It circles, swoops and caws — echoing claws and wonder at random and only intuitively predicted moments into a misty, gray-heathered thick mountain twilit evening.
But then the clouds break, the sky is a warm glow turning...
le SIGH
embarrassed, ashamed, worried, guilt-wracked….
and I remind myself:
it’s all guru’s play. simply guru’s play.
meditate on the naam… and see all of this play, dancing before my eyes as mere folly… delightful for its own entertainment value.
sigh. Bliss, really —love because the ego, mind are pulling me back with desperate hands right now — which...
